It is only 7 weeks in for me and to be Honest I don't know what or how I feel.Just taking each day as it comes.
My Doctor gave me some very good advice,he said it can be worse than them dying,as you still have to deal with them, and that you have to go through the grieving process,and that it is best to cry and let it out instead of bottling it all up.
I am in the same position as yourself,married for 28 years,he couldn't even tell me to my face he done it by a phone call. I thought I had been hit in the chest with a sledgehammer boy did it hurt.
Then I had to go through it all again when I told the kids I have four 25,23,18,14. it's not easy.
But I have to say so glad I found this site even just reading around helps.