I feel this will only serve to hasten my un-doing.
My wife alreadys says I have been un-interested in things for some time and it makes me wonder if my depression has not been going on longer than I thought.
It probably has been around for longer than you expect,you may have sensed the problems in your marriage and instead of sealing with them slipped into a depressive state. But it is never too late.
Give the anti-depressants time to kick in, sometimes it takes up to 6 weeks.
In the meantime, get some exercise, go walking, cycling, anything for a "natural" high. I personally guarantee you will feel better straight after a wee walk, or run or cycle, which ever you can do. If you are unfit, do only what your body will allow. Do not over exert yourself.
Whats done is done, now you need to look forward. Wallowing in the past, and past comments from your x2b will damage you more. Prove to yourself that this is her loss.
You are not dead, you are not handicapped, you are not living in poverty.
You are alive, start trying to live alive again. For yourself and your kids.
Soupie, Hi I'm kevin. Please feel free to read my initial post. Since 4ever I have been self harming, depressed and eventually found that I have Bi-Polar. Life has it's ups and downs without the added stress of breakup's. It is difficult at the best of times trying to cope, but with help and support of familly, friends and forums like this it should get easier. I hope this is the case for you, remember 2 steps forward 3 back, U will get there in the end.
Thanks for the comments and I hope all is coming together for you.
I have no support from anywhere.
My aging father is too ill to help and I don't want to burden him with my problems.
I gave up friends for fatherhood.
My children really don't need to be used as emotional crutches.
My work colleagues are not close enough to confide in.
I really don't care for concelling unless it's for me and my wife and she says that's not gonna happen.
My sisters are miles away and have problems of their own (not like mine)
You have support in abundance here, and judging by the amount of responses you get from your postings, you have so many people looking out for you.
Like you, I have no family near me, no close friends near me, no real support network, until I found Wiki. Without these lovely people here, reminding me to eat, get some rest, and making sure I knew they were always there for me, no matter how miserable I felt, I simply wouldnt have got through the last 8 months. The same people are offering you the same support, without conditions, simply because they understand. It is up to you to take up that offer - you are not alone, everyone is here for you.