Hi I found out my husband of 30 years was having an affair and the next week I received a phone call to say my brother who was my only living older relative if that makes sense was in a seriopus condition in hospital in the middle east.We flew out my stbx and me and sat with him over a weekend and i held his hand while he died (he was 54and my older brother by 8years).
For a lot of the time in the hospital i sat back and just watched what seemed like a play unfold before me I couldnt cry despite what had just happened in front of me I then flew back to uk and drove a 2 and a half hour trip home from the airport as stbx was too drunk. The next day I started crying and couldnt stop for about three days then for most of the summer i couldnt get out of bed and my three children who shouldnt have had to looked after me.
The tears will come I have been there and i recognise that tight feeling in the throat and chest I think we just keep going .
You are obviously a strong person stay strong .....lots of love
My sympathies are with you. Let your feelings come naturally please, there is no right or wrong on how you feel but it will come when ready.....
My story, last year my beautiful mum who was also my best friend found out on 1st June that she was terminally ill. I stayed with her day and night, we had luvly chats, cried, laughed etc. She died 26 days later. I am still in shock.
All this like yourself during a nasty divorce, but keep stong firstly for yourself, then your loved ones, and keep posting on wiki.
Weirdly I fill up over absolutely everything, but I now find it impossible to properly cry.
I have lots of reasons to cry but the early days of howling and sobbing are gone and as much as I feel I need it, I don''t have the time or the ability any more
Thank you for all your kind thoughts and good wishes.
I have booked a taxi for tomorrow.I decided driving might not be such a good idea.I might suddenly need to cry and be a danger to everyone on the road!