I''m traumatised and sad .. After cheating and sleeping with the woman my ex ended up with and saying what he said to her happened .. No family no children .. am over 40 lonely because I m too traumatised and chances of children is next to none .. I see future looking after nephew ec and living a lonely life .. Life really sucks I wish I was nit here because I know is not getting any better ..
Welcome to Wikivorce, Mimi After, although I''m sorry you have a need to be here.
No-one wishes they were here when they fist find us, but most are very glad that they did, because there is plenty of support, advice and help to be found from our members - many of whom will be able to relate to what you have written.
You aren''t "stupid" but deeply hurt and in shock, which is to be expected after the trauma you are going through. Life sucks at the moment, but it wont always, it does get better.
Look after yourself, make sure you are sleeping and eating the best you can, do you have a good support network around you? If not, you do now - the Wiki community. We have a chat room where you can chat to others in similar situations to yours, why not pop in when you feel ready - you will be made very welcome.