I just want to apologise to the moderators and decent folk on here for using crude and bad language in my recent posts.
I have just had a major setback and have tumbled into the pits of hell again.
There was a lot of faux bravado there when in fact I was falling apart.
Don''t worry about it, the site as well as offering help, advice and support is also a safe place to vent. From time to time we all need to. Given the sh!t most of us are going through most of us can understand how you feel.
Don''t be so bloody daft, big fella: if people here can''t understand the emotion that lies behind the odd sh!t and f*ck they clearly shouldn''t be here. Not saying we should abandon all our restraint but accept that we''re in deep pain so occasionally we dip in our social graces. You should hear my language in private! Take care and keep posting - you''re a beacon of inspiration: if you can get through this after 30+ years so can I after five. John.