John, you will have ''better'' days, ''bad'' days, ''reasonable'' days - all sorts of days.
It''s part of the moving forward process. Just dont beat yourself up if you''re having a ''crap'' day because you might feel a whole lot better the next day.
Pleased you have stuck to the no contact rule. Each day you can do that is an achievement by itself.
You are still in shock but gradually you will come to accept the situation and move forward. Takes time, sometimes a lot of time - but you''ll get there in the end. Honest.
All the comments on here are from people who''ve been through the mill themselves.
You should be thankful you never married her or had children.
I cannot possibly allow myself to be under her control or power any longer - I MUST take care of me. I do miss the person I thought I knew dreadfully because we were so good together - or so I was led to believe. BUT she''s decided all that meant for nothing and went off with someone else. The pain is unbelievable. But she''s treat me appallingly and somebody like that cannot be worth my love and friendship. Her loss, right?
I know exactly how you''re feeling. I''m sitting here eating dinner with my son. We cooked a meal together (well...he''s 3...but he helped:-), now we are eating it round the table. We played today. We went to the forest for a walk. We went to the park. We did the shopping. We watched a DVD together.
But my wife''s absence is impossible to ignore. She was a huge part of our family and there''s a gaping hole where I wish she was. I wish she was round the table with us now. In the park I see families...with their children...but I am not like them.
The pain you mention is my pain too. I have no magic bullet for you. Seems that we simply have to pass through this any which way we can.