- Is when I miss her most. I roll over in bed and automatically try to put my arm around her to keep her loved and safe...and she''s not there. I don''t like her as a person but my heart misses her smile and cuddling in John.
Practically everyone on this forum knows exactly what you are feeling.
Being physically close to your partner in bed is part of the bonding process and makes us feel safe. A bit like a security blanket.
It makes us feel that regardless of the stress the day has brought, everything is all right with the world.
This is a natural human thing.
Before all this happened, I had never slept alone for more than 30 years.
It takes a lot of adjustment.
You will eventually, with time, slip into a new routine, it is just a difficult adjustment to make after so long together. Take care for now as it always is the wee small hours that emphasise our loneliness and the reality of our situations. FoS x
John - Hang on in there! The so called people in our lives who say they "love" us then drop us the next day aren''t even worth missing. I know exactly where you are coming from though but things, as they say, can surely only get better.
What a process we have to go through to get there though, every day and night brings its challenges.
Next step for me is to repaint/ decorate virtually the whole house as she only did it a month or so before she left me. Now that is a reminder that has to go !
We can and WILL get through this emotional hell, what I keep saying to myself is she even remotely missing me or thinking of me, NO ! It will get better John.
i remember in the early days waking myself up talking to IT.,then trying to put my arm around IT, but IT wasnt there, that hit me hard, i got through it, so will you, take care xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Have let myself and you all down - riven with loneliness and pain I left her a message in the small hours telling her how much I love her (nothing back, of course). Idiot; that''s all the power back to her. And as of yesterday officially unemployed and so hunting about for pennies. Partner gone. Business gone. Life really wasn''t supposed to be like this.
You have let no one down. This is just the sort of setback that happens to decent caring human beings. You will have lots more backsliding to cope with and for a long time you will think that backsliding outweighs the steps forward. It doesn''t. No matter how many reverses occur you really will keep moving forward, a tiny step at a time