Being based on the coast near some of England''s nicest beaches SHOULD be a good thing but as my break up and all the legal mess that follows it when one of the parties refuses to co-operate with ANYTHING drags on to nearly a year now I''m feeling so low at the moment...
I guess as with most people my best memories of our relationship relate to days out, holidays and sunny days. And now I am so alone and can''t ''move on'' whilst the divorce and finances drag on I wish for clouds and rain.
How lucky you are to live near the coast:) ,
although you are feeling so low that your unable to enjoy it:(
Like yourself i also focused on the good times,days out and holidays of which we enjoyed a few every year,but those days are now gone.
When you think of the good times you always have to remember the bad times,even though that is hard:S but they are there and if not we would not be where we are now.So were our lives so idyliic then ???? i know the answer in my case, do you know yours??.
It is easy to stay indoors and mope about,
we all have to get out there,and attempt some resembelance of a life,otherwise we are failing ourselves,Okay I don''t think i failed at my marriage!!he did!!and I have 2 amazin daughters from my marriage who are my life,but i''m sure of one thing i''m not going to fail at my life,otherwise he has taken the core of me.
Try to get out and about Iknow it hurts when you see others so happy:S but that was us one day and now look at us!! many smiles are painted on
Chin up;) things can only get better.
Luv and cwtchs
I''m killing myself ''legally'' at the moment: the anti-depressants have got me through the darkest suicidal early months but I have promised my Mum that I won''t do anything stupid...but now that the ADs seem to have stopped me from crying and breaking down (which tbh I MISS!) I am drinking and smoking myself to death....
Joined a gym and stuck at it for a few months but....I had no motivation to look after myself or think to the future. Being in limbo is so soul-destroying isn''t it? No-one else but yourself can give you hope I think: its got to come from within.
I just need a break in my circumstances, just one sign that this will end soon. I put ALL my trust in solicitors, courts, judges, police etc and nothing has gone right so far: I wish I''d come on here sooner!
Good luck to you all: it definitely helps to know that one is not on their own with these kind of heartbreaking issues....