As usual your right . I did put her on a pedestal and yep she had flaws.
It''s this acceptance thing .
I''m feeling on a downer at the moment.
I''m going away until mon going be beside the sea. I find it invigorating .
Gonna take my guitar , enjoy some good fresh seafood , stroll the beach , read take in the scenery . Have a pint of good old fashioned beer in a cosy pub . Find a place to have a sport massage. Hell I''m even taking my swim shorts. Sauna , jacuzzi whatever . Forget the world and my troubled mind a while.
I have lost my mojo Marshy , maybe I''ve been resisting that long it''s worn me out .
Just gonna try and let it be , gonna stroll that beach walk up to the shoreline and try let it all go away with the waves. Then , stroll back have the best meal and wine I can . Gonna really spoil that boy .
Even checking the car and packing is effort for him .
Cleaning the house before I go is effort. don''t wanna come back to stuff to do .
Got a five hour drive ahead , now that I''m ok with .
Yep sounds great Dec. Hope you find your mojo on the beach. I also love to walk the beach. Esp in winter when there is no one around and the waves are running in. Makes one feel very small and is very grounding. Hope you get what you need. C.
Reaching acceptance.. this is something I''ve had to do in several areas of my life at the moment and I don''t find this easy to always do. I have had to reach acceptance recently that my 8 new job roles are within my ability. That my dad''s wife is probably going to need a lot more than I can offer so she will like me. That I am sometimes scared of being on my own. That I am able to follow all ''you tube'' instructions to fix the toilet, bath, extractor for bathroom; without messing it up even more. Yet I begin to realise over time that all this fighting self, instead of focusing on my reality and life as we know it, is tiring and saddening, that I now just believe this is just a place I am at now. Why do we have to go through this rubbish stuff? I have lots of friends that seem never to feel like me but it would appear they are not me. so as much as I sometimes wish for a totally different life, my life is as my life is.