Firstly I hope your son is ok. That must have been horrendous for both of you.
Quite honestly how dare you offer him a place to stay - clearly outrageous of you to be kind !!!! Mine has twisted everything too and it takes all my strength not to buy into it. Don't let him get to you, concentrate on your son and him getting better. That's all that matters.
I understand completely what you mean about money. I have always been a bit useless budgeting. But I'll get there. I confess I've been cutting my daughters hair but so far ( quite sensibly ) my son is resisting.
Sorry your anxiety levels are up, totally understandable. Just think he will soon be disappearing into the hills again. Stay strong and know you are the better person.
Anxiety is a difficult and distressing emotion. My counsellor described how the grief of loss is something a person grows around - so it is always there at the core, but as our world around it expands, so the grief diminishes.
The more opportunities we create for positive experiences now, the less our anxiety becomes.
Don't know if I've explained that well, but I hope it makes sense. I hung onto that thought when the anxiety struck.
Writing a journal helped me. Never thought it would, but it did. Just writing it all down was cathartic. Never read it, just wrote it to get the negative/angry emotions out.
I just hate the anxiety. It is like I’ve been so taken over by the divorce and its aftermath that it seems to colour the rest of my life ie I get stressed about normal everyday tasks that wouldn’t bother me usually. I guess this is part of the stress of the healing process. It seems my mind and body are exhausted but I think eventually the effects will fade and I’ll get back to some kind of equilibrium.