Funny the things we find out about the people we thought we knew. I have been having these ''was he always like that or did he change?'' thoughts, and looking back for signs (there were plenty, but I ignored them). But in a way, perhaps none of that matters now.
Still, I feel for you - the shock, the wondering, we could do without it.
But there''s nothing for it but to keep putting one foot in front of the other as best we can…. keep it up x