Bloody hell. I must be mad. Dog tired and instead of at least closing my eyes I''m on here and listening to the shipping bulletin.
Crikey there goes the national anthem.
And now it''s the world service. What is the matter with me???
You''re still reeling with the betrayal Eliza, it takes so long to sink in doesn''t it? And everything always seems worse in the early hours of the morning. It feels like your soul is stripped naked at 3am sometimes. Hope your day got better. x
Yes there''s the betrayal and the injustice. And the fact that it is ongoing, not just in the past. And then there''s the fact that I honestly don''t know how on earth I am going to manage. Not just with all the stuff I have to do and all the uncertainty and how horrible everything is going to be but quite literally how I am going to provide for my family. Since he is going to provide nothing at all. Ever. When he could have provided for his family he stole from us. It''s just down to me now and I am rubbish. I really have nothing to look forward to other than no longer being married to him. But this misery will never end.
I think it''s a natural human condition to want justice, FairPlay...it''s about balancing the scales which is why we have the law (I''m not a solicitor nor barrister). I was explaining family law to my mother-in-law today. She can''t understand why I expect spousal maintenance or a slightly larger share of the capital as she didn''t get this in her divorce at 60.
I know this principle doesn''t really apply to you Eliza as it sounds like your ex has either spent the money or hidden it somehow. Yet your final hearing is scheduled for 3 days isn''t it so there is a legal understanding of the complexity and there may be some relief for you at that point.n I have a bloody minded ex too who is toughing it out to the final hearing and won''t negotiate.
I really really understand your desire for justice or your not being able to sleep because of the injustice of it all and I am sorry you are tossing and turning.
It must be difficult being the breadwinner after so many years. Hope you get a better nights sleep tonight.