just starting on what seems like a very long and road, don''t want to be with stbx, but I am very scared, can''t eat, and have pain in my tummy all the time,
I have 3 wonderful childen, who husband has no interest in, but tell his solicitor differant!!!, I have good days and bad, founding things very hard, just to keep going sometimes, worried about the future ( can i do it on my own) and money!!,
Welcome to wiki, but sorry you need to be here.
I am guessing that you are quite early on in the process, it can be a long road, and rarely an easy one, but there are plenty of wikipeeps who will be happy to offer support and advice or simply ''listen'' to rants.
Hello and a very warm welcome to Wiki. I hope that you will find the comfort that you will require at this time to make it on this journey as peacefully as possible.
You may have to go to your GP and tell him/her just what you are in the midst of. Regardless of who left who it is a shock to both parties and not easy to comprehend for a good while. You have to look after yourself first and foremost. Eat little and often, soup, yoghurt, smoothies are a God send in the early days. You need your strength for your little ones.
Take each day as it comes and do not be too hard on yourself, baby steps is what you will hear on Wiki, day in and day out. Do not race ahead and expect what is coming to be over too soon, that will not be the case you have to live this journey of divorce and separation and it is a roller coaster of one. A voyage of many different feelings, emotions and worries. It will affect you both physically and mentally but you are a fighter I am sure and you will come out of this, what will be will be.
Stay strong and make yourself your own priority, rely only on family and friends that you completely trust, even if it is to help with the children so that you can have some ''me'' time.
Keep reading the forum and blogs, you will find inspiration and many answers to the questions that you seek.
I too am very early on in this process. I totally had the terrible feeling in my tummy like a big knot of fear.
The good news is that it does subside after a while and although I still feel scared, and like you worried about money, the physical symptoms of it all are getting easier.
I also like you dont want to be with STBX ,but I still get days when I am so terrified of the future I wonder what the hell I am doing.
When it gets really hard i think of the misery the last few years have been living in a dead marriage and it spurs me on to keep on going.
and as they say....when you are going through hell................keep going!