Hi. I've just registered on this site as feeling very down.
Not used to talking about things but here goes.
Been married next week 25yrs, myself and hubby not really getting along in 5 yrs, but came to a head last week and now divorce proceedings started.
I'm so worried, we have a mortgage (He pays majority of bills and mortgage in my name) but only tends to work 1 or 2 nights ( we have family business) we're in arrears with the arrears.
Idk yet what he wants to do about house, ( mediation will no doubt happen eventually) ideally I'd take it on if we don't lose it first.
I'm in debt of 70k, stupid me stayed home with kids while he was 'bread winner'.
Even now he's horrendous with money.
To top it I'm now 'living in my bedroom while he's making a horrendous mess around house and drinks.....
IM scared, he NEVER confronts which has been the problem but I'm now scared too....my mental heath is bad (been in hospital this week with overdose).
Idk how long I can keep this 'front on.....what the hell do I do first.
I know its difficult but you need to look after yourself and put yourself first before worrying about anything else.
There is no rush to the roller coaster of divorce and it takes time for everything to sink in, but there is a way through and the tough and hard feelings lessen with time.
Go and see your GP to discuss your mental health and they will be able to support you. I suggest you also continue to post on this site as there are many people who have been through the same problems and can offer support.
Thank you for replying.
I know you are right...but feel so lonely. As soon as you mentioned gp and mental health I started getting upset, right there I think I knew I need to sort something, im just scared of breaking down and losing it.
Hopefully I will get the hang of this site and try and get support and help. X