No not the one with the trumpet... It's been over 12 years now since my 'penultimate blog'. I felt it necessary to do what I said I would and make one last entry. My children have all grown up and left home. I am still living in the family home where I single-handed raised the children, all of whom live quite local, allowing them to all visit at least once a week, when they express their love and affection. They have all found good jobs, have lots of friends and all make me proud for what they have done with themselves. I made a decision a number of years ago, that I did not intend to start a relationship with another person. A selfish decision really, as I found that being able to do what I liked, when I liked (money notwithstanding) a rather novel (even if sometimes lonely) experience. Every Christmas the children stay for a couple of days. Their mother also visits every Christmas morning to open presents with them - an inwardly upsetting event in the early years, but one I felt vital for the kids, irrespective of my own situation, and one that I have grown to embrace. Time marches on. I do have some regrets. I wish that early on I had made every effort to seek out somebody new in my life, so that now, all these years later, I might have been leading a more contented life, but we make choices as best we can. I hope that my blogs may have helped some of the unfortunate souls stumbling upon them. Peace and best wishes.
I've been divorced for five years now and, like you, am not looking to enter into a new relationship. I fear another one with the mental tormenting, false tears etc.. so I'm happy alone with my little dog. Cheers