It will be seven weeks tomorrow that he walked out on me and our two children.
I was absolutely devastated at first but as time goes on the urge to want to ring and text him every two minutes is slowly diminishing. I have also left all of the contacting up to him and it has worked as he has text me a few times. He even asked me how I was last week, indirectly as it was a text that asked how everyone was but that in itself was a small victory for me
Anyway, I am sitting here with a job application that he has asked me to help him with. I have it open on the screen in front of me and just find myself staring at it (same company, better pay). He is at work at the moment and said that he would come around later so that we could finalise bits on it.
I am more academic than him and so can put a good application together for him easily, he has the knowledge and experience to do the job but isn''t so good at putting it on to paper if you know what I mean. I am pleased that he feels that he can come to me and ask for my help and that he trusts me to do it but...
I have very mixed feelings about it. On the one hand I want to help him as I still hope that we can get back together (we start counselling this Friday), but on the other hand, what am I thinking? This man walked out on me and is still giving me the ''I can''t see a future for us'' speech and yet I am going out of my way to help him.
If I do help him and we get back together then great but if we don''t.....doesn''t that just make me look like a complete idiot?
No, if he gets the job but doesn''t come back then he has put himself in a position where he will probably have to give you more money. And he''s told you all about it so can''t hide that fact! I would say that makes him the complete idiot