Well tomorrow marks the end of 20 years for me and how do i feel....i feel positive for the future but on the other hand i feel sad that the last 20 years have ended on a bitter note.
I feel sad that my ex cant be a man and talk to me instead of admitting he got it wrong...i feel sad that we will never remain friends and i feel angry at all the mess he left me to deal with all the while he was hiding out at his parents!
Well the only advice i can give is what dont kill you makes you stronger and my new life will start tomorrow!...
I feel angry that i lived with a man who kept a diary on me followed me to the gym all the time he thought i never knew but those days are gone i wont hate him but i cant forget...and i never adbide violence...i know i can be happy now!
I have just had a letter from my solicitor that my Nisi is being pronounced in my favour on 21st May.
I have been married for 20 years, together for 25 and it is a real wrench in some ways. But I know that I have a better life without him and his disgusting, sleazy ways. He can get on and do whatever he wants (albeit with a new tart and baby that he didn''t want in tow!!)
The worst things to come out of all this are a more fraught relationship with 2 of my daughters; the loss of his family to me; having to move out of my home; losing some people who I thought were friends; having to fight to get my share of the money; fighting to get support for the girls (he is self-employed); and knowing that he is living there and has his tart and baby round regularly when the girls are there.
The best things are finding new friends who I didn''t know I had before; starting afresh in a new house (even thought it''s rented); knowing that I have a new career ahead of me after I graduate from uni; the self-satisfaction that he cannot try to draw me into his disgusting lifestyle again and finding an inner strength and confidence that I didn''t know I had because it had been subdued for so long.
I am looking forward to my new life but wish the next couple of years could just miraculously jump.
I will draw strength from your positivity. Mine is on 18th - still waiting to hear if he''s going to refuse to pay costs and therefore have to face him in court, and like you sad at the bitter ending due entirely to him.