Holiday now sadly over and I am back home. I had a brilliant time and there was no need to fret.
It was so relaxing and I loved being in a room on my own. My own space, it was great. I left the hotel early in the morning for my walk along the beach and the harbour, I found a lovely little coffee shop and thoroughly enjoyed this time. I didn''t feel sad or lost or down, instead I felt liberated, exited for my future and hopeful.
Everyone was in really good spirits and we had lots of laughs. My 2 year old nephew is an Absolute joy to be around, he''s so commical even when he is having a tantrum he''s funny. I was a bit naughty and encouraged him a bit, too tempting and so funny.
We have all agreed to go away again next year and I for one can''t wait.
I remember my first holiday abroad without ex with a very good friend. I remember too feeling liberated. I realised I had not fully been able to relax on a holiday for years. Too worried about him, why he was miserable, trying to cajole, trying to please. I would often come back from holiday feeling confused, utterly disappointed and totally drained. Of course, back then there was no room in the relationship to experience those feelings, everything was about him. I''d put my feelings on the shelf again and just continue trying to keep everything together.
When I started to do things alone after he left, it was only then that I started to realise properly what had been going on for all those years.
I am glad you had a nice time, a much needed break and you have found out a little bit more about yourself, what you like and what you want going forward.