Hello again. I haven''t been on for quite a while. Riding the storm I guess. Quite a lot has happened but I feel for the better. Have been looking forward to the New Year because I now feel strong enough to make decisions.
Today is my birthday and I have my family coming round - in fact I got a call from my little sister to TELL me that all the family are coming round on my birthday, which I''m really looking forward to.
The knots that I had in my stomach have all but disappeared and I have feelings of acceptance and determination. Yes, I still ask why he did this but I totally accept it. The OW brought me a present and gave me a card - just from her and not him and her. I was a little confused as to why but I wasn''t at all mad. The only thing that did upset me was seeing her in our car with her children sitting in the back instead of ours but I soon got over it. Christmas and New Year were good but had a pang after I realised that this was the first year in 25 years that I''ve spent it on my own! But again, I accepted that.
I have felt some satisfaction though as I think ex has realised that the grass is not greener on the other side. He criticised her stating that she is not like me and is not one to get things done! I just smiled and remained silent. Feel in such a good place at the moment, long may it continue.
To all those out there who think that it doesn''t get better, I can reassure you that it does!
what a fab post.
mine is early days 3 months and its so good that someone can tell me that it does get better in time.
i still have knots in my stomach and this has been the worst christmas of my life purely down to my stbx causing havoc with the arrangements with the kids.
reading your post gave me some hope that things do get better.
Promise it does get better. There are no hard and fast rules for recovery, everyone is different. I thought it would take me a lot longer because the knots in my stomach felt like they were there to stay, but alas they have all be gone.
So glad I''ve been able to give you some hope. Always here if you need help.