Don''t Know How I''m Supposed to Feel

Marshy is right but it is difficult not to want to see them hurting too.

I am three years down the line and although do not have contact with stbx my kids drop things out occasionally, most of which makes me laugh because everything he poked fun at when we were together he is now doing with OW. This really makes me smile and I would likem to see himsquirm if I was to ask him about it which will not happen. However I cannot help wishing sometime that bad luck would befall him so he can see how it feels to hurt. I put my whole life into my family and now have no extended family or friends and so am alone apart from grown up kids both of whom will have left home at end of this year.
I dont think I will ever stop feeling this way but hope that you can get past it as so many others have.