Here I am again, writing away, although today I have understood my pain and have accepted. Have gone through all the various stages of grieving, my counsellor said treat it like it is a death, difficult though when the guy is still shouting abusive words at you given the opportunity. I feel a lot lighter now that I have my mind focused on the future. Accepting change is always a big challenge to people like me, we like our set ways... However, change can be good, so for those of you who are grieving today remember things always change, and yes it's true there is a silver lining in every cloud. I find myself getting my confidence back, dressing up again and laughing again. I do not know about tomorrow no one really ever does but I am in a good place today and I value it. X has stopped speaking to me today instead of feeling, like my world is falling apart I am feeling ahhhhhh some peace at last. Isn't it a beautiful thing? Peace and how we take it for granted. I hope through this I have become wiser and stronger, but love does do strange things to people..