Feeling low tonight. Lack of sleep and missing the girls has taken it's toll today. I've been doing so well, feeling positive but I know deep down it's all an act. I just want to be happy is that to much to ask? I miss my family very much, I miss being married, still I glance at my ring finger most days. But I'm fighting. I'm a fighter and I won't let this beat me. This great poem is for all you wikis, especially for NWGUY. I know he's having a hard time at the minute. Hope you're ok mate. You may write me down in history With your bitter, twisted lies, You may trod me in the very dirt But still, like dust, I'll rise. Does my sassiness upset you? Why are you beset with gloom? 'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells Pumping in my living room. Just like moons and like suns, With the certainty of tides, Just like hopes springing high, Still I'll rise. Did you want to see me broken? Bowed head and lowered eyes? Shoulders falling down like teardrops, Weakened by my soulful cries? Does my haughtiness offend you? Don't you take it awful hard 'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines Diggin' in my own backyard. You may shoot me with your words, You may cut me with your eyes, You may kill me with your hatefulness, But still, like air, I'll rise. Does my sexiness upset you? Does it come as a surprise That I dance like I've got diamonds At the meeting of my thighs? Out of the huts of history's shame I rise Up from a past that's rooted in pain I rise I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide, Welling and swelling I bear in the tide. Leaving behind nights of terror and fear I rise Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear I rise Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave, I am the dream and the hope of the slave. I rise I rise I rise.
Hold on to that positive feeling. It will soon to into hours, then days. Before you know it that feeling you are surviving turns into a whole good week. A month will go past and you realise you are gonna make it. You can feel yourself getting stronger. Good luck x