I'm feeling better than I ever had since my journey began. For me it has been a marker though.. a time to feel my own pulse of healing from heartbreak. If the FitBit I got for Christmas could give a digital readout on that I believe it would be showing positive results. I know it would. Yet again Santa's present to me was the soothing and loving beauty of time passed in the previous twelve months. Time is a careing angel, a constant true friend who continually guides us on our way and never lets us down. I love time with all my heart and I know that she could not rush me along her path.
Since time stopped for me at the beginning, I have very slowly but surely caught up. I'm not fully up to speed and I'm ok with the idea that I might never reach the same perspective of real time as before. Thats because I'm ok with being changed by everything. I'm ok with me again and who I am. The power of my attachement you see was all encompassing. Thats what happens when you are a normal person, happy and in love or someone who has had to suffer the profound consequences of a broken trust.
"Happy" is relative to all of this and its enough to be bathed in the care of time passed with hope for more in the future. A New Year though it surely is and if Xmas was not what you wanted this year .. I understand and so do many others. Our dreams for better yuletides will be fullfilled in the future as long as time continues her careing watch.