not right now
Well it couldn't last obviously. Just been doing battle with HMRC whose 'helpline' has succeeded in making a bad situation much worse, with an inexplicable and unexpected demand for money My house has fallen through. I don't know how I am going to pay my bills, or where I am going to live or what to do about any of it. I am exhausted and resentful. X has been footing the bill for not one but two expensive properties, just not the one his wife and kids face eviction from, has been running up debts and using this address, and is now off on a jolly. It's been a long time, but I found myself thinking of topping myself again. I'm not going to - I have children, and I am hopeful that one day I will be feeling invincible again. But not right now.