Its been a difficult year.... Last Summer was bad...Having being left after 20+ years with two young children I petitioned for divorce & started to sort buying my ex out of our former home. The Mediation process was difficult and painful but finally ended with agreement.
I struggled to come to terms with my daughter having a life long health condition. I've had days/hours/weeks even where I felt 'incontrol' of my life etc but equally I've had many times when I struggled with so many aspects of life that I didn't know where to turn. We divorced on 12th April - a day after (what would have been!!!) our 23rd anniversay. At the end of May we went to court (mainly because he didn't have legal rep) for the judge to finalise our consent order. The reality of it all made me cry (thankfully not infront of my ex) - Why after over half a century together did we end up as 'smith v Smith' in a court.
But..its the little things that hurt the most - my two children 'sharing' their few days away with their daddy with his 'new' partner & her 3 kids. They had a good time but I so wanted us to have our family holidays together.
My ex asking for a share garden chairs....he's bought a brand new 4 bed house with her & her kids whilst I stayed in our FMH with our children.
There are so many small things that hurt so much....
I have come along way though but its just the little things that still hurt.